I have knots in the pit of my stomach.
But today and tomorrow are going to RAWWK (to borrow the expression Christina Grimmie uses ... she should trademark it XD )
Finally getting my new car registered and going out on a limb.
This whole year so far has been an adventure, and it's only going to get better. I believe it.
No matter the highs
Such as God lifting me out of my rather severe depression (shall I also call it lethargism and zombie-ism and I'm-a-blank-slate-to-be-wiped-off-the-earth-there-is-no-damn-point-ism) and telling me He'll fill every place in my soul and my life I empty/let go of, and He wants to go on an adventure with me.
and lows (adventures aren't all fun and let's-do-this)
Such as my grandmother passing away. But I'm glad she doesn't have to suffer any more, and she's having a heck of a time up in Heaven. And it was really, really awesome to be at calling hours and see how many people she influenced--the line of people never seemed to end; there were even people who hadn't seen Papa in 20 years. But they came there, because of who Grammie was, how she influenced them and their lives and made a difference. I want to be like that.
I am expecting growth in my relationship with God, my confidence, my artwork, my writing ... everything. I'm putting it out there to make it official. And to remind myself, wherever I happen to be.
I took a step out when God told me He wanted to go on adventure, and I cut some things out of my life. Like gaming, and chatting with my gaming friends. I miss gaming. But it's for the best. I took a step, and I told Him, go ahead and take a mile. Like, do what He wants. It's scary.
But this Sunday He told me not to worry, He'll take care of me. He's here, He's not leaving, He knows how much I fret over everything-a freaking LOT, like all the time
-and it's all going to be all right. Like,
"Hey, Laya. I get you. Remember that, okay? I get you, and I've got you."
Awesome words, don't you think?